Thursday, June 2, 2011

Never Ending

Never Ending...... What can I say about that, this syndrome is never ending. There is no end in sight. Just when I think I am feeling better, it starts all over again. This syndrome has seem to take a life of it's own. My kids, my relationships, the way I deal with everyday life has been affected. I am cranky, moody, and down right depressed. I am a lot more depressed than I originally thought. I don't like to go out anymore, and stay in the confines of my room. I use to enjoy going out and sitting in the sun, now the sun is too much for me to take. I am only 38 years old and have been dealing with this for over a year now. What in gods green earth is life going to be like for me during the next 25 years? I don't want to know. My quality of life is shot. I have none. Most of my friends seemed to have distanced themselves from me or just act like nothing is wrong with me. I guess if you pretend like nothing is wrong, you might actually believe it. Not the case. This is my life, the rest of my life.

Linda